In case you wonder why haven't I wrote a thing on the blog lately, the answer is because I've been having so much in my mind. Every normal human being must have gone through this phase of mixed emotion that is just too much to handle. Perhaps, now is my turn to experience it.

I wake up excited, I pray for a nice day and I've always been ecstatic to see my bestfriends (yea rite, not that I have that much) but then, by mid-day I can feel disappointment and anger tickling every nerve of mind. And poof! ...there goes my mood.

I don't know why exactly, but every curve of my brain has their own topic to think about. I just do. Even about the unthinkables. It's insane. I may seem to be fine but, newsflash, people, we're born with our own natural ability to cover up what we truly feel. Behind this mask that only I can see, I have infinite items that I can't easily clear away, and right before I know it, anxiety hits me like a train. Sheesh, if you don't know what anxiety is, or if you haven't experience one, I hope you won't have to feel it somewhere in the future.

It's usually not that difficult for me to pour my heart out into words and blog it up. And my writings lately just end up in my draft folder or just there, in my personal journal. The reason why I don't feel like posting them is simply because they are too blunt and I'm not here to hurt a soul. You know, when you want to scream at the top of your lungs to feel better but you don't want to bother anyone with your noise? That.

Writing this post is the least I could think of. This post is a sum-up of what's in the mind and I think it's just enough. Writing this and everything else is just enough for me in order to emotionally survive. Because right now I have come to the point where keeping my thoughts to myself is far beyond what I could bear.

But anyway, let's turn up the music and dance the bad vibes away because heeeey Friday is here and weekend is just around the corner. I wish your day's going as pretty as me (no? No. Okay, no.)

Spreading good vibes,

Sarita Ayas