Hello again, readers. I skipped last week's post, do not even know if I can keep up with this or will just continue writing when I feel like it. Meh. So the week mid-term test has just finished today and God knows how the results will be. Meh (again). I'm sorry if I sound like a pessimist but the whole mid-term test thing was backbreaking. Like... I don't even know what did I work on?! Alright, since it had passed anyway, I spent this Friday going to the cinema with a Nada to watch Maze Runner: The Scorch Trials and we had some coffee and many many deep talks. Also, I already bought a copy of Sapardi Djoko Damono's novel, Hujan Bulan Juni. Hands down to one of my most favorite writers. Sorry for the rant, I wish you didn't have to read it *self-toyor* and I guess this post should be titled "Post-Mid-Term Test Mood" IDK.

But anyhow, I know somehow I'm not gonna pass some of the tests but heeey there's always tomorrow, am I right or am I right? School is tiring, I'm not gonna lie, and all I have to do is make sure I'm alive and walk as careful as I can to get to the finish line in a piece. Not only me, there are plenty of people I know from school stating that they feel like hanging themselves up, trying to survive school (what a paradox, huh?) and we have our own tricks. Wait for it!

What I do to keep me from insanity is surrounding myself with good friends, good laughs, keep on making great memories and keeping the vibe positive. It works a lot on me! I mean, a five-minute talking with good people are all that I need after going through a 60 minute of stressful physics test. It could be spent by ranting over the damn test or laughing it off knowing we're not gonna pass it. Either way, we know it was a hard time but the end of the tunnel isn't dead.

Secondly, I always make the best of every lunch break--every single break, including the colongan ones--and really get myself off of all of the text book. I'll get to eat and socialize, that's why it's called a break. Everything that I do, they gotta keep me away from stress and anxiety. Also I give a huge credit to my journal and pencils for I abuse them most of the time. I write A LOT. It's crazy, believe me. But who am I kidding? It helps!

Basically just do whatever shakes the bad vibes away.

And to be honest, I don't think I ever forced myself to study. I mean, I do study but it's never scheduled and every time I think I've had enough, I stop. This does not necessarily apply to some people, though, it's more of a personal pattern. The only thing that I keep in mind is that all things must be done willingly. Just like Murakami wrote on his Kafka On The Shore, "The most important thing we learn at school is the fact that the most important things can't be learned at school.” I buy that, a hundred percent. Not that I'm saying school grade is not important, it is. But I believe school is not the only thing to work on. There are so much more to learn and discover. I try to live for the moment and experience new things. and that's what I live for. Again, it's the way I see it.

Conclusion: Whatever happens, don't let it rain on your parade. Just hang in there!

Spreading good vibes,

Sarita Ayas

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