4.18 AM - Sleepless Ayas is back. To begin with, this post contains absolutely personal thought and before you stop by only to dig deeper to my personal life and come up with seriously inappropriate judgements after that, I politely ask you to leave. Thank you very much.

Maybe it was my fault for taking a little too much of coffee, maybe it was my fault for skipping dinner, maybe it was my fault for having literally too much to think about. I seriously do not know what state I am in right now and I have no idea of what and who I can rely on. Never in my life I experience this kind of thing before and it undoubtedly shows who I am, I think, from how I would react.

A lot of things were happening in a day and, honestly, the thought of asking why would those happen, was the thing that kept me off my bed. Where did I go wrong? Why me? What did I do to deserve all these? And the questions will never stop. Me writing this, without any doubt, would get certain people to think that I am a hopeless, lifeless, pathetic little lady whose only activity is looking for attention. Well, hello there, y'all. I hope your day wasn't as bad as mine and  your cruel thought. I know you're reading this but I don't need your validation to what I'm feeling.

I have heard a lot of lemon jokes, and I didn't take any big deal out of it. Now I know why people made them. Most of the time I keep telling myself that I won't let things get along my way and I believe that it's under my control. But in reality, it's not that simple. A lot can happen without us even noticing and that's the lemon in the lemon jokes. The sour in the life of ours, that moment when you shut your eyes tightly and wrinkle your little nose after tasting acid. I get it now. Lemons alone taste terrible, many of us can't handle its sour but it won't last too long unless you let it. When life gives you lemons, my advice is take it. And if you want, you can either make lemonades, sell them or mix it with iced tea.



Keep the faith,
Sarita Ayas